HeartBeat

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I lost my mind for a while, I lost my emotions, my heart, my head. I became a cold hearted selfish individual who cared about nothing but himself. His OWN happiness and what was happening in the moment. A person who lived life without consequence. 

Like a bulldozer to buildings, breaking down the things I loved and destroying relationships and friendships. Ruining my reputation and become something and someone I was not. I don’t know why or how it all started. But I was on a really destructive path for too long. And like they say, all things soon come to an end…

Usually I’m not a person to regret things, but the life I led for a really long time; I regret. The people I hurt over time, the things I said, the things I did, are things that will never be forgotten by many or over looked. But all I can do now is hope and try to be a better individual. For the important people who I mistreated will one day forgive me.

I hope I am not judged for my behaviour and I hope many will see that I was not myself. I hope many do not think that this is who I really am, because it isn’t. I was at an immature stage in my life, and that is still not an excuse for my actions and words. I have no excuse and no one to blame, but myself.

For those that I’ve affected in the past with this behaviour or who was witness to my reign of terror…

I’m sorry.